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I still don't understand PTSD fully.  What I do understand is the feeling which sometimes creeps up. It makes the world seem different for a while. It can be like seeing reality in a different way. During awareness it can be hostile. It's easy to give up control if unaware or absent when time shifts. Breathing helps, and writing. Keeping calm and focused is not as easy as it can seem.  PTSD in absentia Breathe out..exhale Go slowly, wait Think less…pray more There is no freedom…in your sorrow Breathe in…wait Running fast will take you no where If you think, you can dream I want you to think, who you can be   Breathe in…exhale slow The world is not the one you know Let it out, the misery Breathe in…your life is free Moving fast will not take you there Go slowly, you have no fear   Breathe in..exhale slowly Let the rhythm feel your heartbeat moving Take all the time you need Don’t shoulder the world Just let it be  Breathe out, exh...

A Just Society "Justice is difficult for those with limited or no resources to fight." (Eversley,2016) In part 1, we saw a war declared, and the battle cry which followed was crushing.  The organization, the institution, the country have the resources and the capacity to crush the employee who dares to fight and not comply.  The Business Dictionary Online  defines 'justice' in the workplace in the following way:- “ Fairness in protection of rights, and punishment of wrongs. While all legal systems aim to uphold this ideal through fair and proper administration of the law of the land, it is possible to have unjust laws.”(Business Dictionary.com, 2015) Goliath v Employee How is an employee, an individual to take on this Goliath who holds freedom from economic poverty by employment? Goliath holds the keys to unlock statutory benefits based on compulsory subscriptions to government institutions. Goliath has the power of political affiliations in many...

The Light Yesterday I saw one of my doctors, and realized my journey will be long. I knew this before, but it only hit me ( a big wallop) last night. I have ongoing pain. Some days are better than others, but I am alive. For those following my journey you will know this year I decided I must live, live, live. Whatever your story, whatever your struggle, whatever your challenges - you are alive to see another dawn. I have over thirty plus years experience in "sales and business development"and most aspects of  both fields. Tough times don't change unless you get tough and wise. For life to be sustained you have to find a way to balance the challenges of your professional life and your personal reality. I have had the privilege to be an entrepreneur  working in a regional market with an international supplier and a local base. I have had successes and I've had my share of failures, all adding to my practical experience. Most importantly though, I have had th...

Find The Light "In the moment of your hardest trials the sun will come out. In some way it will." (Eversley,2015) Everything in life has some light in the darkest of times. How do you value life and the cost of justice in a corporate war? Why start a war and what is justice - are the questions to answer. Life's Cost There is a cost to live, a life to pay for Do know your worth The value of your life If you can figure it out, give me your tally Hard to decide, if attributing money Can you value a part, maybe the fingers you write with? Do you think it’s worth more than words of a myth? No one part can be valued more than the other No one is more important than that unknown brother? So you live but you die; life of working shame For money, or power to add to a name Life misses its mark as you tarry and jest Love misses your soul, do you even feel regret Lashing out their voices in rage with threats of a war which is real Your dagger d...

Life as art… To everyone of us life means something different. Sure when we speak to each other it may sound the same, but its not. What drives me is different from what drives you. Each life is like a piece of artwork waiting to be painted and discovered. Its a beautiful mural or picture for many, like the works of French artist, Paul Cezanne or  the American artist,Thomas Kinkade. The stories can be brightly colorful or filled with dark despair. Each step and decision can become a stroke of something to expand on, or something we would like to wipe clean from the canvas called life. My Canvas/Your Canvas My canvas, I like to imagine was filled with yellow and orange the day I was born. As my mural unfolded, strokes of white and black began to give life to my actions and decisions. As each decade passed, the picture changed, it expanded and images and people were added. There was laughter, anger, joy, pain, and a lot of passion and suffering included by the artist who was...

Faith Whatever your beliefs or religious persuasion, there must be something which moves you to feel that joy and hope in the midst of challenges and sadness. I believe in my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. I believe and put my trust in him, through all circumstances and events I have gone through.   My second son Aaron, had just turned sixteen  and was diagnosed with multiple scoliosis – curvature of the spine. I was devastated, but he had to have surgery very soon. He went in for surgery, and it was successful - the spinal surgery. However,something happened to his internal organs and after a couple days they would not wake up. His intestine was perforated and he was dying – slowly being poisoned. They were unsure he could survive a second major surgery at the time. He did. His faith and trust in the Lord pulled him through that surgery, together with the unexpected miracle of a visiting specialist in that field from the UK - who happened to be on call. I prayed so...

Reflecting female thoughts I'm quite fond of our male species - I have to be, having borne two wonderful sons and my daughter. Life happens and if you are privileged to be around children growing up, you learn a lot about yourself. I grew up in a home filled with females  and had ideas from relatives, family, and friends about the male humans.However, until my sons were birthed, its safe to say, I knew nothing about males. In getting to know and understand my sons , I learnt about me, and my value to them in their male haven. They think differently, and they should because they are wired differently. They are smart, protective, honorable and exasperating ( introducing me to Steve Harvey's Act Like a Lady think like a man!). They always had both parents- just separately for quite some time. We are parents first, single/ married second, and that's my philosophy, once children are involved! Like most women, I experience challenges  with how I see myself,my family -t...

The courage to carry “To have a love that lasts forever, is to truly understand vows and commitment” (Eversley,2016) In all of my forty six years of life  I have waited for the commitment of true love. To really believe that there are people in this world who can cherish and care for another romantically has become a faded dream. A dream which has been archived into the fantasy part of my mental library. The love stories of long marriages  which are not abusive or filled with indiscretions seem ancient. The new lifestyle sets a pathway to divorces which have become their own academy awards on film. Acceptance of prenuptial agreements and exit clauses are now necessary when thinking of love – whether in a celebrity career or leading a nondescript livelihood. To this end I did weep when I read  from a friend and learned of his devotion, marriage and love for his wife. Let’s be real, and understand this is a true ongoing story of endurance, commitment, passion fo...