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  Hey world... I’ve been anxious, worried, and afraid. There is a lot of stuff going on this year, and as December draws near, it feels as though I am depleted. There is nothing more I can give. Sleep is hard, because I won’t allow myself the freedom to accept that I’ve been speeding through life, because if I drive slowly, my dreams will leave me. So how are you doing today human? When do you stop pushing yourself beyond what is possible? Who is chasing you when you are chasing your dreams with those ridiculous deadlines set, because your survival is not based on nutrition, but on some standards mere mortals will never attain? Stop. Slow down. Breathe. The eye of the storm is where you need to find calm, peace, and acceptance of self. It is okay to stop because you need to. Let everything that matters become what does not matter because you need to take care of you. Be brave and be vulnerable. Cry. Free yourself of the things that make you anxious, worried, and afraid....

I still don't understand PTSD fully.  What I do understand is the feeling which sometimes creeps up. It makes the world seem different for a while. It can be like seeing reality in a different way. During awareness it can be hostile. It's easy to give up control if unaware or absent when time shifts. Breathing helps, and writing. Keeping calm and focused is not as easy as it can seem.  PTSD in absentia Breathe out..exhale Go slowly, wait Think less…pray more There is no freedom…in your sorrow Breathe in…wait Running fast will take you no where If you think, you can dream I want you to think, who you can be   Breathe in…exhale slow The world is not the one you know Let it out, the misery Breathe in…your life is free Moving fast will not take you there Go slowly, you have no fear   Breathe in..exhale slowly Let the rhythm feel your heartbeat moving Take all the time you need Don’t shoulder the world Just let it be  Breathe out, exh...